I love the way you love me

Okay so this last week has flown by, holidays from work always do sadly! Haven't done a great deal with the time and not done much of the stuff I said I was gonna do, or see some of the people I planned to sadly as they had to work. I have had a good rest and I think I am ready to go back tomorrow, couldn't really sit around at home all the time as I would either spend all my money in the pub or get bored and go shopping! I could maybe do with an extra day to watch all the dvds I seem to have aquired but none the less I have also had some pretty awesome times as well, mainly with my wonderful boyfriend! My birthday especially..

Do you ever wake up and know already it's going to be a brilliant day? Well yesterday was one of those days for me...Knowing I was only a short time away from meeting him when I woke up, getting that feeling of butterflies on the way into town cos I knew I'd be greeted with a warm hug, that feeling of you can't wait to see someone..yeah I'm sure you've all been there or you often experience similar feelings..well at least I hope you do! I was right it was that kind of hug where you instantly feel loved as soon as he swept me up in his arms, this made me smile even more!
We decided to go to Yorkshire Wildlife park for a few hours, mainly for something different and to stop us spending all day in the pub, which is fun but its something we do way too much. At first when it was suggested I did think for a while a Wildlife Park? What is it like a petting zoo for kids? But boy was I wrong? It was an excellent place and who knew that was right there on our door step? I was impressed I have to say especially by the Lions, meerkats and this little guy..

Yep got quite smitten with the 'little donkey' (won't sing the song lol) But yeah all in all was a great few hours and hearing the lions rawring at each other was epic too!
Afterwards we of course came back into town and went drinking, naturally but was nice spending time with my lovely man, rocking out and upsetting people in each pub with our juke box choices..Was best when a random drunk guy came over and didn't approve of Fear Factory but you know what? fuck him if he wants to moan then put your own money in pal and put on what YOU want we ain't stopping you! We were also joined by a random woman who was lovely but couldn't half go on, she wanted to be educated in the ways of rock so who were we to say no? Especially when she gave us money to put on some 'choons' But we kept it neutral and put on alien ant farm and Bon jovi lol..didn't think she was quite ready to hear Pantera and Machine head..no those are for the more hardened rockers like us ;)

Then the night was finished off at Paul's house where we shared some beautiful moments but won't draw you a picture ;) But I think that day has brought us even closer and I feel so lucky to be in such an amazing relationship with a beautiful person..I LOVE this photo of us..hehe "I always wanted to have a rocker boyfriend with long hair" says me lol! well at least I can go back to work smiling remembering all the good times and look forward to Valentines day even more and Shinedown gig baby!!!!!

Love you so much baby this is for you..and yep its Ronan ;) xx (for some reason the video link won't work so will post the words instead)




"The Way You Make Me Feel"

Couldn't feel much better
Than the way
I feel tonight
Feel like I
Could live forever
Feel like I
Could fly
When I thought
I'd get it wrong, yeah
You somehow
Make things right

[CHORUS:]
That's the way
You make me feel
Better than
I've ever known it
Better than
It's ever been
I can't seem
To control it, no
The way you make me feel
Like the sun coming up
In the morning
Like holding the world
In your hands
In a way I could
Never imagine (yeah)
The way you
Make me feel

I couldn't feel much better
Than when
I'm here with you
You make everything
Seem so easy
I'm telling you the truth
You never try
To please me
But somehow
You always do

The way you
Make me feel, yeah
The way you
Make me feel

The simple things
You do to me
Simple things you say
I sometimes can't believe
It's for real

The way you
Make me feel, yeah
The way you
Make me feel
The way you
Make me feel

I would like to thank Mr Keating for been there for me, for teaching me how to love..All those fanfics I wrote really do felt like I was writing my own love story, and well now it really is happening! Oc/Dc anyone? pahahaha!

Incubus love

Okay so now comes the time where I talk to you about something I like (yes not all my posts are rants) I am going to tell you about my favourite band in the entire world, Incubus!
Well what can I say about them? They're just not like any other band they are different and don't sound like anybody else out there which is one of the main reasons I love them so much. Oh and they are FANTASTIC live, which is a bonus ;)

All of their albums don't sound alike from the first one to the very latest one they're all unique but insanely good..The guys in the band are serious musicians and the sound they create is out of this world, and Brandon Boyd..well the man needs no introduction the way he writes songs is just beyond anything else and the way he performs and moves about on stage is just captivating! It also helps he is rather fucking sexy as well ;)

My two favourite songs by them would have to be 'Consequence' and 'Idiot Box' Both of them unique musically, lyrically and the way Brandon delivers them live is just unreal!! His voice is stunning and makes your hairs stand on the back of your neck..Other songs by them mean a great deal to me too and even more recently since been in a relationship, I am of course talking about 'wish you were here' 'Dig' and 'Love Hurts' because those songs remind me why I am in a relationship with this person and the words speak to me. Plus I think seeing them in concert brought us closer together..That experience on November the 9th will be something I won't forget in a hurry!
I don't really have a favourite Incubus album all of them are special in their own way and there is one for every mood. They know how to rock out but then the next song can be heartfelt and loving.. My advice to anyone out there who appreciates good song writing and all round great rock music then give Make yourself a listen...You will not regret it trust me!

Thankyou Incubus for keeping true to yourselves and always been amazing at what you do while at the same time keeping it real and keeping your feet on the ground! Not many bands like them anymore and if critics wanna slag off their new album and say "it's not as good as SCIENCE" then I'm afraid you don't know the real Incubus and what they were trying to achieve, here's some advice yeah? Listen to it more than once you may even like it ;)

I end this with pictures of the one and only Brandon Boyd!

Yet another rant

Well this post is dedicated to the 'Stalkers' out there..yes the kind who stalk Boyzone particularly Mr Ronan Keating whom I am very fond of (in case you didn't know) I have been reading a few things recently that have bothered me so need to get this off my chest..

First of all why do it? I know it's nice to meet him once or twice, I admit in the past (like early solo days when he travelled alone alot) I have stood outside a hotel before or after a gig and got lucky and did meet him and have no regrets but now? No way, he has a wife and three children if anything I would feel like it was an invasion of his privacy. His hotel is his home away from home and if it were me I'd kindly tell you all to fuck off but no Ronan is way too nice for his own good, shame for him sometimes cos some people dunno when to stop!

But I have seen with my own eyes people running over to him..pushing their cameras in his face for a pathetic photo opportunity. NO it's just wrong..to make it worse it's the same fucking bitches who have met him twenty times before I mean haven't they got enough pictures? The same people who go to every gig, every meet and greet, every airport, tv show, every hotel..Seriously do you people not have a life? What do your husbands/partners think of you doing this? is this normal behaviour? I am not jealous before I get accused of that, yes maybe I'd like to have a little bit more money to do a few more gigs on the tour but I think I am normal compared to some.
I also know of certain people visiting Australia to see him from the UK..Sure her mum paid for that but it's the manner in which she does it is what pisses me off..On twitter tweeting away about how much Ronan likes her and tweeting exclusive shit on her 'private account' fuck off love your not all that, nobody is important enough for a private account unless you have something to hide! It's pathetic it really is and people need to stop encouraging her. These people are not your friends sweetheart they are just milking you for all your worth and you are stupid enough to feed them what they want. Because that's all 'fandom' is..well in the boyband world anyway...People using each other for shit, it really blows and I have been 'friends' with many along the way believe me. 90% of boyzone fans are just a pack of wolves just out to get what they want and use whoever to get there.. I have seen bullying first hand over twitter for fuck sake..The people that got bullied did not deserve it and what for? Cos the people doing it are just malicious bitches who deserve to be locked up! I dunno why its turned into such a competition cos at the end of the day these guys are married do you REALLY think they're gonna look at a fan twice? delusional is a word I like to use! I think what I do is perfectly fine..I have seen Ronan twice in 2011 and I am fine with that, its called been normal..I support him and buy his albums but it seems like that isn't enough for some! Oh no lets be OTT and stalk him every chance we get yeah man..Do you not realise he maybe sick of you? Invasion of privacy much? Some people have no morals and I think they crossed the line long ago. It should be about the music and not an opportunity to constantly out-do someone cos you've seen them more! If you read this then hey sweetheart major PROPS to you well done for been the worlds biggest Ronan fan but you also have the biggest head there is, surely your house must need an extension for your head to fit in!
Anyhow I have made some true friends through Boyzone too, A few in particular who knows about this blog, thanks for keeping it real I truly believe these idiots will get their commupance some day! xxx

Society blows!

Okay so I always said I would never live in the past but at the moment I feel like it's the only happy place to be! Not in my own life cos some of that I definitely don't want to go back to, no I am talking about music and modern culture..I mean seriously what the fuck has happened to society? Do people now get a kick out of watching people make a tit of themselves on reality tv? Talking like the fuckwits from the only way is essex, since when did our wonderful English language consist of the words 'Well Jel' or 'Well reem'? You can even buy t-shirts with it on now WHY???? it's not clever it's just dumbing down things and kids are gonna think that is the norm as they grow up!
WHO decided this was a good idea for a tv show? Not just that show that gets me it's the X Factor, Big Brother and anything else where the small minded public feel they're important enough to vote for something un-worthwhile! Do people really spend their evenings watching this tripe? Is this what it's come to? I remember the days of good stuff like british comedy such as the fast show, the thin blue line, gimme gimme gimme and even top of the pops was good..once! but nah it's sold out now! not saying tv is doomed forever but now I find myself turning to our american friends for good tv, the likes of CSI or the Mentalist keep me occupied thank god!

My next rant is about music..What the hell has happened to the good rock bands? Why doesn't anyone in the charts know how to 'rock' anymore? It all seems to be pussy singer/songwriters or just CRAP in general, not dissing people writing their own songs obviously but non of it has any balls! I know my favourite bands are always bringing out new material and thank god, but why don't they ever get the recognition they truly deserve? Since when did it become 'cool' to like Rihanna? This is only my opinion of course but seriously who sits there on an evening and listens to stuff about how much money they've got or how much they like to shake their ass? fair enough if your a chav and like going out to 'clubs' it maybe more suitable for your tastes but I'm not one of those people..Plus how come nobody is original? Every one of these songs has a sample from an old song or they are so and so featuring someone else, come on now when did it get this bad? gone are the days of recording the top 40 and knowing every song..I don't think I am saying this because I am getting older I think I just know what I like and it certainly ain't this! Maybe I should stop moaning and get on with what I like, I just wonder about the public and the lack of imagination they seem to have...give me Phil Anselmo any day that guy KNOWS how to rock out and write a decent tune! I tell ya Layne and Kurt would be spinning in their grave if they knew what society had become now..
This was a rant by Miss Ellen Guest, thankyou! I know a certain Paul agrees with me? tee hee xxxx

And in this moment I am happy..

Well now I am going to talk about a person who has become a huge part of my life recently..Well he was always a huge part for over a year but lets just say my heart now truly belongs to him for the better :) He is my everything he is my soul mate, my best friend, my lover and basically just an all round ace person to be with :D I am so happy I am with you Paul I could not ask for a better boyfriend than you, you are sweet, caring, lovely, funny and your kisses take my breath away. You rock harder than anyone I know and I love the way your mind works..A few words from you instantly make my day better and I love you with all my heart. When I'm not with you I miss you and I can't wait til the next time we can be together..Brandon Boyd had it right "love hurts but sometimes its a good hurt and it feels like I'm alive" Let's just say I feel more alive than ever right now. Paul Henderson you rock my world and I can't wait to see what the future holds with you in it xxx

Well hello there!

Well I'll get this bit out of the way first so here I am, this is me...Ellen, 29 and from a small town in the UK. I live with parents still but I guess there's no shame in that with the cost of living these days, meh!
I do have a tumblr blog where I post about random things I like but I thought I'd start one on here too to write about stuff, yes Paul I'm copying you babe hehe!
I live my life pretty much by my own rules, dance to my own beat..that kind of thing! I don't usually like the same things as everyone else but that's ok, different is good! I'm not your average barbie looking girl with fake tan, long blonde hair who is into the latest chart music..nope far from it! I love my rock music particularly grunge and a little band called Incubus who make me smile more than any other band has done before!
I guess I have always been a bit socially awkward and well put it this way I prefer my dogs company to real people, she makes a lot more sense than most people I know ;) I only have a small amount of friends and people I trust but I prefer it this way..these people that have over 1000 friends on facebook make me laugh I mean do you actually know all of those people in person? No thought not ;)
I'm usually a laid back kinda gal anyway I love nothing more than kicking back in an evening playing my favourite songs, talking to my amazing boyfriend (more on you later my lovely cos you'll no doubt read this ;-) ) I am easy going but it takes me a while to trust, but once you have my trust and my heart then I will pretty much do anything for you, within reason obviously! I am a good friend, a good listener and a pretty ace person to be around if we have the same interests, but if you wanna drag me out on a Saturday night to the crap bars that play sheep like music, then you may as well leave me at home! Not my bag man! Anyway will shut up for now..much love