Last few months in a nutshell...

Well since Bloodstock I have had lots of 'post festival blues' especially since I had to go back to work and carry on as normal, bit hard going from rocking out every day to going back to reality and serving assholes in a pub but there you go. Going to Bloodstock made me realise more and more that life isn't to be taken too seriously so since then I have tried to have as much fun as possible in my spare time, mainly with my gorgeous Paul. I actually feel lucky and in love every day of my life and have done for the last ten months and six days :) Life at the moment just feels so wonderful and sharing it with such a special man makes me smile like never before, never thought I could feel this way ever but it just feels so so good. When I have a bad day at work I take a step back and think hey it's not bad because I'm in an amazing relationship and nothing can bring me down. Suddenly the small shit doesn't matter and life is beautiful and it will take a lot to upset me right now. I let small shit get to me sometimes but I soon get over it when I see Paul, everything just feels right with the world again! After a cuddle everything is good again :) So after bloodstock Paul and I have done some cool stuff, usually involved us getting drunk but hey what's new? Had some days/nights out on the drink. One Friday we met up with a few more friends and went out for 'a few quiet drinks' didn't quite end that way, it consisted of buying cocktail jugs, shots, spirits..you name it we drank it! Safe to say I was dying the following day at work but it won't be the first time and certainly not the last. Had a few occasions like that including going Bowling yesterday and then going on a bender afterwards, we skipped the pub lunch and went to the 'pub' instead so to speak. But it may seem like an average Monday or Tuesday to most but for us we always seem to have some random encounter or go in some random pub we don't usually visit, Corner Pin included in this. But I love it cause we just keep it real just drinking and upsetting the locals with our jukebox choices, but come on now we do indeed rock, shame everyone else doesn't see it that way but fuck em ya know? A main highlight for me was just a few weeks ago when it was Paul's birthday, those two days were amazing..Spending his actual birthday with him, seeing his face when he opened the gifts I'd bought him, the same gifts I had put thought and care into over a course of months. He instantly loved them and this made me happy. To me that was the best gift of all, I enjoy giving presents more than receiving them sometimes! We had a great night and we chatted, drank and laughed until the early hours. The next day was even better, yes Full Moon dog festival at the Cockpit in Leeds. We mainly went to see Orange goblin but before there were some great metal bands as well. Was a great night but also a great day as Paul and I decided to ditch the bands in the day time and go off and explore some more drinking establishments in Leeds so we found one of our local Leeds haunts, Carpe diem! Was quite lively in there with the Saturday afternoon drunks fighting among themselves but also great for us cos we had cocktail jugs and successfully got smashed before visiting another cool pub shaped like a boat. We then headed back to the Cockpit in time for Orange goblin who were amazing. Only downside was been right on the barrier and getting squashed by some morons and falling over when aiding the crowd surfers. But we did get Ben Ward leaning over us so that was a highlight..kind of, if your into sweaty rockers in your face that is! Cool experience though but next time I say "lets go to the front" may think about it first cos we know what happens now. Got very smashed that night and headed back to Donny where everyone else seemed to be wrecked and carrying their shoes round cos they can't walk in them lol! Had another cool time when we went to visit Lou and Dave in Uttoxeter. Which only can be described as more drunkenness involving rum, attack of the doggies, train drunkeness and lastly urrrghhhh...Paul knows what I mean lol ;) We can definitely blame the herbal schanapps but I actually don't think its meant to be polished off in the same day as a bottle of rum! Great times though and great friends :) Other things that have happened in my life are Ronan releasing an amazing new album and him generally just been gorgeous and amazing again. Discovering more and more cool metal music on band camp and through Paul. New boss at work who is really nice but seems to be influenced by the chavs (that needs to stop asap) But mainly falling more and more in love as each day passes. It will soon be a year for us two but what a year its been, looking forward to 2013 and the things we have planned already are gonna rock the socks off anything else :D..Katatonia, Ronan gig (for me) Kin hell fest, bloodstock and anything else in between! I feel so lucky and blessed to share all of these times with my boyfriend, lover, partner in crime, soul mate..and that happens to be the same person I love you so much Paul you are my world <3 I may be 30 in January but I still feel young, age is only a number after all, I will continue to do what I do cos I love it! I stay true to myself and don't let other people rule me. Rock on dudes!! Sorry for the randomness but hey that's how I roll xxx