People = Shit

Do you ever look around you, look at people and go what the fuck? I myself am one of these who observes things and rarely voices my opinion. Probably where I go wrong sometimes and get walked all over but I am also a firm believer that you don't always need to be heard just for the sake of it. Last night I was browsing through a few work colleagues time lines on facebook and looked back to 2008 where some of these 'so called managers' looked happy back then, ya know full of life? Out enjoying themselves and doing what they loved. Now I see them at work as these 'somebodies' or wannabes more like..It's like are you REALLY happy? Seems they have become this higher position at work and forgotten who they are almost and rarely do the things they like anymore cos they gotta work an extra shift or some shit the next day. Not saying they don't ever enjoy themselves but I have seen these people change and I'm not sure its been for the better either, I can see them questioning themselves half the time and asking do I really wanna do this? Fuck that man! I mean I could have been team leader a number of times cause I know myself how good I am but don't need to be told that. I get on with it and keep my head down 90% of the time, sure there are occasions when I have a whine or a bitch but that's usually my time of month or I get put on sweets five times a week, hmm indeed! All I really care about is getting paid at the end of the week and doing the things I like. I am still happy as I ever was, sure I hate my job a hell of a lot of the time but it's not the be all and end all of my life, it does not consume me and takes over my entire life! Who cares about been a big wheel down at Woodfield farm? Especially when you have rock music, a few true friends and an amazing boyfriend plus an amazing festival to look forward to :) After bloodstock I am going to look for something new though as I'm not sure how much more I can take, it's not so much the job its just a case of too many chiefs not enough indians, the managers and team leaders contradict themselves so often and go crying to one another if someone puts a foot wrong, ffs get a grip and deal with it yourself! I'm even bored of the whole Ronan fan thing. Sure it's exciting he has a new song and album out but I get bored of posts about plugging the single etc! I should probably be more excited and doing my bit too but thing is, I can't be arsed if I'm honest! Sure he's gorgeous, sure he's hot and has an amazing voice and I will always adore him but I have other priorities at the moment. I think it's the annoying fans that annoy me more, not Ronan, he's the innocent one in all of this. I just think these women need to focus more on their own lives instead of someone else's. Ronan made his own mistakes and is paying for them. I can't actually feel sorry for him to be honest he made his own bed so he has to face the consequences! People in general are kinda shit too, since when did society get so weird? Women obsessing over a fucking fictional bloke in a book, music sounding all the same in the charts because 'the man' says its cool does not mean you have to think that too. Me myself I do not idolise the likes of Rhianna, Katie Price, Katy Perry or whoever the fuck else. I like my idols to be free spirited and actually have some talent! I do not like people who are full of themselves, loud and opinionated I like people to be themselves and follow their own path. I believe I do okay in life I am myself so really sorry if that doesn't fit your standards. At the grand old age of 29 you tend to stop caring so much. I should probably not feel so annoyed by things but I can't help it. I am an over thinker and a worrier at times and it's not something you can shake off so easily half the time!